28 posts tagged “tiwahe”

We went to the going away party, it was really fun and bittersweet. I've had my mind on packing so much that it's really starting to hit me, the people I will miss after we move.

And my dear friends here, (in town) how I will miss them. I've been trying to see everyone, and I'll see a couple of my friends over these next two days, it will be hard. It was hard tonight...such a bittersweet time. I said good bye to one of my close friends last weekend, but it was still far enough away that it hadn't really sunk in yet... now it is. I feel weepy.

So much to look forward to, and yet, a bit to be sad to leave behind.

Cunksi and her Ate are fast asleep. I can't get my mind to quit, so i'm awake. Lots to do tomorrow. Then we'll load the truck. Sniff......

i should go try to sleep.

The sun is shining and we are almost all packed, life is good!
I'm excited to start this new chapter of our lives.

they say we will have a thunderstorm tonight... our first of the season. How very exciting! Mihigna and I love thunderstorms... well, he more than I, the boominess and sudden crashes frighten me a bit... I'm afeared of getting struck by lightening. But it makes snuggling up to him all the nicer.  I like them during the day.

The first t-storm means that spring is really here. The return of the thunder beings... in Lakota culture, we have a celebration for it and everything.

I'm excited. Changing seasons always excite me. Spring is wonderful, rebirth, renewal, clearing and cleansing.  Spring means time to shake off the dust of winter and get realigned.

And now, mihigna and I have all these new things happening. Soon we will have a new home, new adventures, new surroundings... all sorts of newness, coming up like daffodils.  And this year, we have a wee one to share it all with. (Did I mention I LOVE being an Ina?)

Part of the newness is that I'm going to make it ...try to make it, more regular that I'm posting, and not be quite so absent for so long.
But for now, kiohphya.
Miye

Fun things have happened around the artichoke patch lately.  Big things as well.
Mihigna bought me a new van, a very smart, very stylish, 2007 Grand Caravan.
I LOVE IT!!! (Who knew I'd ever say that?)
That thing IS smart, it practically thinks for itself. It lowers the brights if someone is coming, and you forget to do it yourself... I'm SO guilty of that.
It knows when someone is not buckled up or has unbuckled their belt and sets off this annoying, LOUD, dinging until said offender has made things right.  This will come in handy when cunksi starts to go through her, unbuckling of the seatbelt phase. It is truly a fab van, I'm in love.

Wacipi season is just around the corner!!!! whoo hooo!!!!  Cunksi will make her debut at the USD wacipi in her adorable regalia, sooooo cute!!!!  I will be dancing as well, after a long three year hiatus. Wow, LONG time gone.  Much too long.
There is other news, but I'm not ready to share. Must go now, Cunksi needs abu.
Miye

We had the welcoming celebration for cunsi yesterday... it was so wonderful!
People said sweet things,wrote poems for her and S.M sang a song for her; cunsi loved it!  She knew it was all about her, (as all princesses do) and the food was fabu, (thanks to my mom and my friends.)
Of course, everyone brought her presents, really awesome sweet turtle things. It was great.
She is one loved little turtle!

I rarely have time to post these days... so much of my time is wrapped up in a smallish sweet smelling, cuddly turtle.    Then when I do get on here, all I seem to do is talk about her, and I'm sure some of my readers are BORED by that.
Tough.
J.K. (only slightly)
I'm trying to find the balance of where she ends and I start again.  People keep asking if I'm writing or painting, or sculpting. The only writing I have done is the logs in her baby book. I have been painting... I have finished a series of paintings for nurseries that are for sale. Yey. But no real words on paper, of the literary type.
    I'm just absolutely engulfed by her. I think I will get up in the middle of the night, while she is asleep and write, but I can't tear myself away from the precious creature that lays beside me, I still wake up at night and stare at her, in wonderment, amazement and joy.   She nuzzles into me and she fits as perfectly outside me as she did when she was inside. 
i have two dear friends who are expecting soon. One is due this month and the other, next.  It will be exciting to see it all from the other side.  We've been all a chatter about the journey. It's been fun to watch others go through such an amazing wonderful time.
I must go now.

Maybe next time it will be about something not relating to my offspring.

It's almost christmas.

I'm home, hubby is home.

Cunksi is here this year.

Life is perfect.

At this time last year, I was horrifically ill and bed bound with pneumonia.

I was also pregnant, and didn't know it yet.

I was sick because I was coming off the last two hellish years I'd had since I could remember.

But even as I coughed and hacked my lungs out, cikala cunksi was growing and soon i would discover her presence.

Life would never be the same.

I'm glad.

She has made my life perfect. I love her, she is perfect, and I'm so honored to be her mother.

As I write this, she is in the other room with her Ate, they are dancing together, she has a huge smile across her face.

Next to her Ina, her Ate is her favorite person.

She is a mini me.  it is wierd to look in someone's tiny face and see your features staring back at you. 

Or see traits in someone else that you realize are your own.

Traits that are cute in a three month old.... tho I do have more pity for my husband now ... such a saint to live with me.

Two people created this beautiful, amazing, perfect creature; who already at three months knows she rules the roost and is the tiniest diva.

It's great.  

I've said it before and I'll say it again.

I was put on this earth to do a lot of things... but the most important thing I was brought here to do was be cunksi's Ina.

The honor is mine.

If it is awile before I check back in, merry christmas everyone. Happy holidays, enjoy them, may you get what you need in the new year. and what you want.

I'm tired.

Today I left the house without baby girl, she was trying to take the bottle again.

I was a wreck. It's hard to be away from her, since she was born, we've seemingly been sewn to each other. She is a part of me, and when she isn't with me, I feel odd. 

 The good news is, she took the bottle and ate  well.!!!!!  I think it was the nipple. Being a new mom, i had no clue that there are certain nipples that babies won't like. So, I changed the nipple and voila! I think things will go smoother now.

yey.

 It's hard to be a breastfeeding mom and then have to surrender her to someone else to be fed. I know it is probably a natural part of her growth, but geez.... when you are that connected with a being.. it's hard to have that change.

 So, is anyone guessing how much she weighs now??????

 11. 2!!!!!

 The dr is excited over her rate of growth. As am I.

I was a bit worried, as we had a bit of a hellish weekend here.. I won't even go into the details... but she wasn't eating.

That scared the daylights out of me... she NEVER misses a meal!!!! She is a chowhound... so when she wasn't eating.. I was beside myself.

Things are better.

whew.

She is sleeping now, and I should be working.... I know i say that everytime I post.  It's hard though, because when I'm not with her, all I do is think of her, when I should be doing the things I can't get done when I have her in my arms.

I'm really exhusted.  I now understand why mothers are continually sleep deprived. It's a cycle that starts when they are born and continues.  

I don't lose sleep because of her being up.. she, like her parents, LOVES her sleep. She has always been a good sleeper... going for 5 hours at a time... once she even went for seven... but  usually it is five. 

After I feed her, I often find myself awake at 2 or 3, in the morning; she will be next to me, snoozing away and I'm wide awake. Thinking of her, worrying about certain things... thinking i should get up and do some work, but then wanting to snuggle down next to her tiny, adorable babyness, and cover her with kisses.  (She is so very kissable you know.) I want to get up and start projects I have been wanting to since she was born... but i never do. I try to go back to sleep because she is so small and adorable.... and I need the sleep.  I am then left with thoughts of when will I ever get back to work? when will i ever get any writing done again? Will I?  Or will this be the end of my writing career, until she is grown and off to college?

My writing seems so very small and insignificant in the face of the child I bore... but there are mornings, when the night is just slowly turning into day... that I miss being wrapped up in my writing.

Life continues, now more than ever, to be a balancing act.  

Hard to belive baby girl is going to be two months old. ( In ten days.) Life continues to be amazing as I spend time with this beautiful being.

There are some fabulous things around the bend for hubby and I, nothing concrete right now, but by the third week of nov, things will be more set.  New adventures to be had, and I'm really excited.

The new book is out! I can't believe it, (it has only been 4 or 5 years in the making, due to publishing glitches, funding and editors getting sick.) It's really amazing.. they sent us the gally, and it was really powerful just like that. But to see it in print now, is mind blowing.  I'm in the company of  some amazing writers!  I'm honored to be too!  It has been a long time coming, but it is going to make a difference in a lot of people's lives.   Which is what I think writing is supposed to do.

Baby girl is alseep right now, and I should be working.... but I'm not. I need to eat something... I've dropped so much weight from breastfeeding, I'm looking gaunt and emaciated. I had no clue how much breastfeeding would take out of me. Then many days I don't really get to eat until hubby gets home... I'm so busy taking care of Cunksi. It's funny because someone said to me: baby's gaining weight and getting bigger, but you are getting smaller.  I am just glad she is growing so well. That is all that matters ultimately. And it's nice to see that what I am doing for her is making a difference. Good food and lots of love, that is what makes babies grow!

OH!

Happy Holloween! If you come to my house to trick or treat.. you will see baby girl in her cute little costume. I was going to go out trk or trting wiht my sis and her kids... our annual thing.. but it's too cold for a baby girl!  So, we'll stay home and give out the yummies!

Have fun and get lots of treats!!!!

Wow, I've been swept away by motherhood.

It's wonderful.

And trying.

And tiring.

But so worth it.

Baby girl has grown and continues to grow so well. She is already a pound heavier than she was at birth, and an inch longer. And she is only two and half weeks old!!  The power of breast  milk!!!!  

I'm so proud of her!!!!

Our pediatrician is really happy with her progress and loves her to death.. which is so fab. I really like him. He is personable and great with her and understanding of how nervous and freaked out new parents can be. He is kind hearted and appreciates our daughter like we do. I wanted my pediatrician to be similiar or have much of the same values and views as T. Berry Brazelton....(my hero) and he does. woo hoo!!!

There is so much to say, about the whole birth exprience.. and what has happened since then.

Ate' went back to work this past monday... he was a bit glad to get back.  Nights were pretty long around here for those two weeks.

She is such a fabulous being.. so well tempered. She's not a constant screamer... despite the fact that she has had tummy troubles.. she will scream sometimes, but not continuously.  She calms herself fairly well and is such a happy baby. her little face changes everyday... she is growing so fast. I have to take pics every day.. she changes overnight.

I am sleeping more and sleeping when she sleeps... which is all the time. But, most days it is really hard because when i have gotten done nursing her, and I lay her down next to me.... all I want to do is stare at that beautiful face... that little face that we created... the perfect little being.  She is just so perfect. I can't get over it. She's a snuggler, which is nice. Not suprising, but nice.

I do nothing but nurse her and carry her around all day. Which isn't conducive to getting anything else done. She's a momma's girl, which is nice.. and normal.. and not something I will complain about. i will learn to get over the urge to clean my increasingly messy house and just let things be as they are.  The time I have with her now... will never happen again.. she will only be at these stages once.  And she is changing so fast. I dont' want to miss anything.  

I am able to write this now because Ate' is watching little miss and I have some alone time... time I should be using to get an essay done that is due at the publishers in two days.

But I have baby brain and it is too soft to form much coherent thoughts.

I had to send pics to the relatives and such other important people in her life.. so that took up some time.

Now Im ready to go hold my daughter again...

     well, maybe I'll take a shower first.

Ok, I will post more later. Promise. It may be a few days... but I will get it done.

be well, Miye